Chapter 91
Once they got in the car, Ren Yi noticed Gong Yingxian’s face was full of exhaustion, with dark shadows under his eyes.edhpmUdYqwIfSkAeVNFDMCFOfOwDla
mniEGJsEEMmYIgnRen Yi frowned and asked, “Have you slept at all since the incident?”basNsplKmcdowsAtBuxNFJiHJIzqoh
xpwCBsHFtGuVISE“I closed my eyes for a bit,” Gong Yingxian replied indifferently. The events at the concert—whether it was Purple Flame’s situation or Ren Yi’s—had left him restless, so he’d been working nonstop ever since.NKRLCRbDPLzOnSprvarCaFVeRwqWGk
PbLeTSBNLrZEfAZ“Let me drive; at least I got some sleep.”AttmycUPfkchCFAHlitGADckNlcViV
ZpxPbxGQFKGElseThe two switched places, and Ren Yi placed Miao Miao onto Gong Yingxian’s lap. “You should try to get some rest too.”yLIliCNoqCudlDvEqAqeEuRDhxNuJz
xvezJhbxzXkwTuf“I can’t sleep.” Gong Yingxian stroked Miao Miao. “It’s grown a bit.”ZiVcFepiTRsRFGWyQeuAMQZtCNLqix
zjvKozYHdBdgAxR“Well, it eats every day, of course it’s growing,” Ren Yi said. “Lean the seat back and at least try to rest a bit; lack of sleep affects your ability to think.”SdAaRlMNaZDKkZcQzbyIWbaDARKhxN
nzPMGWqgxmMPKEJGong Yingxian reclined the seat, stretched his back slightly, then unzipped his down jacket and tucked Miao Miao inside.hwsvjeLCKgZzbSjYVbzGFmOXaFsCJY
dQKtylSCqyeTEzDMiao Miao poked its little head out, meowed, and obediently curled up on Gong Yingxian’s chest, clearly content with the warmth and already preparing to continue sleeping.sKXhmIOJJcIEHwqmlhlIUVNTCgNTxU
gkReGJRLKIkcUTL“How often does it get bathed?” Gong Yingxian asked, gently patting Miao Miao through the down jacket.onZAevhVdIGRZpsSyhcHrkINcZJubD
WfSKQTDOHZcrZzo“Hasn’t had one since it got here,” Ren Yi said as he started the car. “It was washed when it was at the pet shop recovering, but cats are fine with a bath every few months, right?”BKUFCaeOJghFYsYEEQYhIMqEbHAmqG
kDZOoEiigebdTSlGong Yingxian shot Ren Yi a sideways glance. “Bring it over to my place for a bath.”mbCNzSPneQkHwWQtAKIzaGTJyXFKcR
qTWMnoZLebVxEfaRen Yi smirked. “You think it’s dirty, yet you’re tucking it into your jacket?”eNrwmeykoNTdRFAFWzxMmZzQCBAZQQ
OvJhQSzKSPBoJNA“I don’t think it’s dirty.” Gong Yingxian paused, then clarified, “It is dirty, but I don’t mind it.”qmpstDTlogxKPQjVwPrsbhOTMOyxGa
OTbmoGpINgxWtOa“Seems like your cleanliness compulsion is improving.”LGuVzDjsnDEMRjiEyHFXmlPBDRrjpp
MgBzhyXPkJosBrP“It isn’t.” Gong Yingxian said plainly, “It’s my cat.”JYxWsQjErBiOaCMdShONrJDlJRWqGQ
DexsjMcuGIbNkZFOur cat, Ren Yi added in his heart.UDtGIfXOYOLTARfYKwhhXYNmGFMEBp
rLbvBCPwyNzJlSh“Can’t sleep; let’s talk.” Gong Yingxian turned his head to gaze out the window at the retreating nightscape, not wanting Ren Yi to see his expression.FRzqkzbRPfDkYYGpyDtwdUSUkLeIXE
xaOdcrotKnriHbS“Alright, what do you want to talk about?”yXzHjNQjikilJgdmdTuXPTBVZCfkvZ
eUPqmKTvOBovpmH“How many boyfriends have you had?”xtUFxvJPZjhWWrcDKJOKQkUGWwfNYz
TYXuxeKNQGfzdrRRen Yi almost lost his breath for a moment, completely caught off guard by the sharp and pointed question Gong Yingxian led with. It was as if he’d been holding this in, waiting for the right moment.UGhysSFYmNcDUksmVXvDpGIiYwOyTH
OUOUQgBjSLpskUs“Hmm?” Gong Yingxian was a bit displeased by Ren Yi’s silence.JBoeHbDGCGXugSInFdnNBDykAKRrjm
MjBEeUiedGDqWTP“…Three,” Ren Yi answered honestly.ACmUHwTyTIDVwxPNDoJUmUZiDVjMSC
mrNbsSiPnOhgKEkGong Yingxian suppressed a hint of anger. “How old were you when you realized your orientation?”KRhPxovjBIDhiUnBONjnTlmKophqPA
xOIQUsSkHbJObYF“Around fifteen or sixteen,” Ren Yi replied, feeling quite uncomfortable. He stole a glance at Gong Yingxian, who was still staring out the window, his face revealing nothing of his emotions.cGEYCffgMxCSMgqDaWLYKDiAltFrlw
qsrmqNRimZrdZux“And how did you realize it?” Gong Yingxian asked in a flat, mechanical tone, as if stripping any intonation that might reveal his emotions.iLOkbuvCoAIfgfHSmrwcftDyFQCBpJ
gNyaQdwqrUlwAnoTo Ren Yi, it sounded like an interrogation. He sighed inwardly—was this a cop thing? He braced himself and answered, “I fell for a classmate.”PQLzegIevrUymCWZhJMWVtsdaBofBz
zqYzgETmsBFxEtY“So, only by falling for someone did you come to realize it?”CNuhIglYwbYWnHYAilkfkBTfrbPCnF
oGpqoyxPWBLoAXa“In most cases, yeah.”AngMFLRsZJnrIydDVbqRXiyZIlqnKL
iphyeLyXlIUyRAq“How do you define this orientation?”IyJnGPYkRgOpesLvYzcwSwwVxOHgQn
tOwaEfAaqMNDtKjRen Yi, feeling awkward, asked, “Define…how?”rllYZRZwWSLfzBtFEyEiTIpvbTXunL
QSFExNjwiwPceYs“What kind of person could be defined as having this orientation?”wGByrGeWSraZJfsKCPDGBTxtwBkopW
FYIKKabEDMlcSqq“Uh…someone who naturally likes people of the same gender, obviously.”YSzgiQpNHtxmtefmgcGgAzSsLjdRje
YLtzkumTRMhicNCGong Yingxian’s gaze turned unfocused. “Then what if…someone only likes one person of the same gender, but no one else?” He had pondered this seriously, and in the end, he realized that aside from Ren Yi, he had no interest in anyone else. Men, women—he wanted to keep his distance. Even with family members like Sheng Bo, Fei Lan, or Qiu Yan, he avoided unnecessary physical contact. The only difference between family and strangers was that family didn’t disgust him.bQUOEtPpJFkoTwZXScrTkOTVwHlmBQ
dKYIDEKfAwQVEApBut with Ren Yi, only Ren Yi, he wanted to be close.CxfIwCzTlhWNSFIjRVGdMSGbVrTGGQ
gDQfdeMuZvqAhKORen Yi thought for a moment before responding, “There are all kinds of orientations in this world; it’s just that heterosexuality and homosexuality are more common. I think if you love someone, there’s no need to get hung up on their gender.”jSFJZPDaKDMRBdzjQslYaBmOZVREGr
DaTznDKLbGZSIvLGong Yingxian fell silent.xPDSZzRQBWLrmRbGldEVORdmpqRApr
CTaFNkatOdeZSBmRen Yi let out a small sigh of relief, thinking Gong Yingxian was finally going to drop this uncomfortable topic.voOVwSuXXvsduFQXZaflHWpYLodPGf
LotelsDCRqIkjWmBut after a moment, Gong Yingxian dropped another bombshell: “When did you guys break up?”fRGmHNwXCrZzilJDMdovuETFTZSUTt
EozTlDeeXWsoVcvRen Yi looked extremely embarrassed. “Huh?”dGqTYNQWAWBWGOYBZxILcYTRxiRsbO
oHBbYtfZlogarml“You’ve had three boyfriends, which means you’re capable of breaking up. So, logically speaking, there’s a chance you and Qi Xiao will break up too, right?”hXefbserRoySORhoKzKUFosSyjayar
ZZhefNARLboBNjVThe investigation on Qi Xiao had been sent to his phone a few hours earlier. Dealing with someone like that only required a small manipulation of fame and profit. Yet, he couldn’t bring himself to do it. He just couldn’t accept that someone like Ren Yi—a person who, despite having a boyfriend, deliberately concealed his orientation, flirted with him, and treated him as amusement—was worth abandoning his principles and morals for something disgraceful.cBETNMVPiZbhwgBgGsBAwdnDwZHHci
DffOJHgtPqcYEpBMoreover, even if he went through with it, Ren Yi still wouldn’t belong to him.DHxDhWYzNppHBshmsAVAwknuxVbNGb
SIlbqzDOxyxnoTQRen Yi took a deep breath. “We broke up already.”wkIKzeYOUEbjWefycmDgQqsyZlEuVY
XhfWPLZrkmWbhrdGong Yingxian shot upright in his seat, turning to Ren Yi with shock.COlpXfadcCtKZaIVBWwveaMCBkDOAn
zLxRlURQswujTIrRen Yi was also startled by Gong Yingxian’s reaction, almost rear-ending the car in front of them. He quickly stomped on the brakes, his heart pounding as he looked at the narrowly avoided collision.vKnfRGFpWZMzQSrjETtPgrovDFsLJa
SqKjkZgBFCCUIkW“When?” Gong Yingxian asked. “That night?”HRXRhwabBuomPFFUCrafDHhUQYvblL
PEVAupWMrMTTFLX“…Yes.”ySvrnjesLfLKkLYIivqZsUMSnhxDLH
ikJBMMYcSAqzUTs“Why didn’t you mention it before?”thBFhSkYnYqrYhLaGQaolYhgxLjOSm
hPzeBBfdBqhgpWc“Does it matter?” Ren Yi thought bitterly. Would being single make him any less “disgusting”?FUjJerJHaSNObGkvCOJoQJsGlfpizz
lWxWWeoWauGtKYxA mix of emotions churned in Gong Yingxian’s heart. He felt like he should be happy, yet there was no joy in him, because Ren Yi had once told him flatly, “I have no feelings for you whatsoever.”KKNeIorphkHTlyEkWkbINKvvdwcTNM
WSoDehLEgUegseQSo even after the breakup, there were still no feelings for him? Gong Yingxian clenched his fists, growing even angrier without knowing who this anger was directed toward. Was it solely at Ren Yi?OYYGCJdtUNixPCEgYAADRLjkPnvISD
STDHivHPfeXCtppAnd so they fell into silence, both of them quiet for the remainder of the drive to Gong Yingxian’s home.zaAuGfVYNdXpAtUExSnShLZvTdFvbc
NSaTZlXSjbbfJqPUncle Sheng greeted Ren Yi warmly as always, but this time, facing Uncle Sheng’s smile, Ren Yi only felt a pang of guilt. If Uncle Sheng knew what thoughts he harbored toward Gong Yingxian, would he end up hating him too?GTbdysvJYzeJiHhmPrnYxzAMmmuurF
xSBgVOWfqPSifDFOnce home, Gong Yingxian handed Miao Miao to the housekeeper. “Give it a bath; I’m going to take a shower too.”fTsszoTkFvpCBxEIgyxijchiKUKdnC
ZkUsXRYlLJADOSCUncle Sheng happily played with Miao Miao for a moment, then led Ren Yi to the dining room. “Captain Ren, are you hungry? We’ve prepared some late-night snacks, all your favorites.”OGyIVytGAuuWQwWxZDPGhTRfAYKgHF
lZPILaDhpRUkJyJRen Yi chuckled awkwardly. “Thank you.”qovGiJUdQwOJDxTJiBupsfuHgVnDJM
wvUjXMSTcvDUptj“Did you both enjoy the concert?” Uncle Sheng asked with a smile. “The young master even had me get him some casual clothes for the occasion. He hasn’t dressed like that in ages; it was like seeing him in his student days again. Such good memories.”xIdiorKqKxzzackgEVnpWryiTNjELn
WBHhvAQLQKhfktN“Oh, it was alright. Sounded pretty good.”dSBrtEJiWQkFFdaEROidqAhUxvTfgc
xRLmFrCdOkUMuaK“This was the young master’s first concert, you know. Before, getting him to go to a crowded place was like asking for his life. He would only push himself to endure such things for work. But because of Captain Ren, he’s crossed his limits several times. Dr. Pompeii is thrilled; he says your encouragement works better on the young master than any other method.”PDVdSoLjVUDuILURsFXvNKmXDWpmYc
iPHFCHGTvSJhRlW“Dr. Pompeii?”FkjpmCtSNksxksUPftdGNMvQKHszWj
vPrLtQnvjHftfmI“Yes, the young master’s therapist. It’s thanks to years of his treatment that the young master can now mostly integrate into society. Dr. Pompeii even said he’d like to meet you next time he’s in Beijing.”qsDmrRJpThpLtonmiRDYxglDjSFVsl
QpFOeKrSKyPFgva“Oh, I see…” Ren Yi felt a bit rattled at the thought of meeting Gong Yingxian’s therapist. Just a few words, and he’d probably be exposed.BAjxJjbTRNlJhuglQdIjAnHeBystZG
JDUinlXROWrDDGy“Dr. Pompeii said that only someone who can genuinely get the young master to open his heart can guide him in the right direction, so having you as a friend is wonderful for him.” Uncle Sheng poured Ren Yi a cup of hot tea. “Captain Ren, we don’t even know how to thank you.”kZJsZTIFoNGZZmvyYdShUvzjDulVrn
EVXvCOBWvkvUkEkRen Yi felt as if he were sitting on pins and needles, his face starting to burn with guilt. How could he be worthy of their trust and gratitude? If they knew what he really felt about Gong Yingxian—if they realized his thoughts weren’t entirely innocent—they would probably feel just as “disgusted” as Gong Yingxian did.zjMSHRvmOYftcXJtMXkATNCQSlhRds
gzVrUyOnCzPNTygHe ate a few bites, then set his chopsticks down, forcing a smile. “Uncle Sheng, I actually ate before I came, so I’m not too hungry.”nTkRQjuZBVgkvemnslHZYvEOYpCwpm
iBcXyDQGlinesTl“Oh, that’s alright. Aren’t you two working late tonight? Just call me if you get hungry.”rLPVJNTacYMBwRhIoCuKQQWlvRqVZb
FghHRHRwfZowLgGRen Yi couldn’t bear to face Uncle Sheng’s warm gaze any longer, so he mentioned wanting to check on Miao Miao’s bath.YOiTbfbLMiroqrSScUMDGXuyCdqDfR
hEzpnMNxpmbDaWzBy the time he arrived, Miao Miao’s bath was almost finished. Ren Yi helped the housekeeper dry her off.wmxtAPQDXPrTovVNZTcvJLvncdRbcD
yRqwIhZWBFMTipzFreshly bathed, Miao Miao’s fur was soft and fragrant, even with a bit of new fuzz growing over her previously burned spots, making them much less noticeable. Holding Miao Miao, Ren Yi decided to take her to show Gong Yingxian.syDEHJMEATkHeMRPJiWfYpJSZCbLOh
KKaTwuJtBLjNaDmWhen he reached Gong Yingxian’s bedroom, he noticed the door wasn’t fully closed. It seemed as if Gong Yingxian had entered in a hurry, leaving it ajar.RTlCGxkCluPsQOtcMbkoITNdLWkqhk
qImBFTVQmqBRhVkRen Yi gently knocked twice, but there was no response. A hint of worry crept in; Gong Yingxian was usually intensely private, so leaving his bedroom door open was almost unheard of. Ren Yi remembered how Gong Yingxian hadn’t slept in days, and his complexion had shown signs of exhaustion and low blood sugar.VgJosPEOWGGjtzQJqEUeFxZwPYFhgU
BxLkcoCDWHkKczTAfter a moment’s hesitation, Ren Yi quietly pushed the door open and found Gong Yingxian lying on the bed in his pajamas. His slippers were still on, and he hadn’t covered himself with a blanket—hardly looking like he’d intended to sleep.DxcimyGxBzodpeKIoiyuIHCJkSQDNW
FAsbOXEEDbtYyrVDamn, could he have fainted?HWyiBqMDjDnEmiaqrSPadccREMtJvN
uZmIQHZflFIBRgRRen Yi, feeling increasingly worried, approached and called softly, “Yingxian? Yingxian?”MRukmdcIxQeJyiiKeSsfOqtLCErfXW
aSfBtRKKjxjaqArGong Yingxian didn’t respond, his breathing steady, deeply asleep.DzctUHSokBKidhAMiKmUfcqwIoNMbN
CgwQtSWHNEsWOakRen Yi set Miao Miao aside, recalling how Gong Yingxian was usually a light sleeper—it didn’t make sense for him not to wake up. If he couldn’t wake him, he’d have to call a doctor.hEzmxowYXNEUiNvOrXlQgfSAtRnrbW
bSQHcZXaYfiaYuiHe gave Gong Yingxian’s shoulder a couple of gentle shakes. “Yingxian, wake up. What’s wrong?”hacyTXOHCeNRlclawHbgNZlPyZuzeS
xodoOcoColhWwzFSuddenly, Gong Yingxian’s eyes shot open, startling Ren Yi so much he instinctively withdrew his hand. But Gong Yingxian, acting on reflex, grabbed Ren Yi’s wrist and pulled him down onto the bed, simultaneously pushing himself up.orEkABPgKjIQFgZweBjiEAOuwWVOkW
uMpnQyMQMeVSHob“What are you doing?”RBJRKxzeMgZGQRIAdgdYvwLSLIBvTc
DlJVgYTIbLFzSIrHaving just finished his shower, Gong Yingxian was only wearing a bathrobe, the belt loosely tied. As he sat up, the front opened widely, leaving him practically exposed.WxkewSpYORGuJFbCxWSVjspbOuzZUN
XmccoDNEkPREyAVRen Yi’s face was nearly pressed against Gong Yingxian’s chest, catching the faint scent of his post-shower freshness. His mind went blank; he couldn’t find any words.wisRfPktAgDurpIeiGWEOgotZIRIBx
PcyRMDlLGnpEyuyGong Yingxian shook his head, clearing his foggy mind a bit. “What are you doing here?”FeKaIxVtFsmwTKxUQSeYiTiwpJdHHG
vkyWSeXbApskosp“I… I brought Miao Miao to show you, and… I thought you might have fainted. Were you… did you faint?” Ren Yi stammered, realizing what he was saying. He quickly retracted his hand. “I didn’t mean to touch you; I just thought you’d fainted.”SYTmhCqvVaDuDWKrsRFYeBmNeqPRzV
gxDVIrSqkKBIVENGong Yingxian’s hand was now empty, and the familiar warmth and sensation vanished almost as quickly as it had come. A sense of irritation rose within him.BsAYbGmWDgBXrEJZvnxHZevRFymScv
XjRuaxYDWgdfDFX“I was so exhausted after my shower that I just wanted to lie down for a bit.” Gong Yingxian noticed how Ren Yi’s gaze darted everywhere except toward him. Lowering his head, he saw his robe hanging open and immediately understood Ren Yi’s discomfort. He considered closing it, grabbing the fabric, but hesitated and didn’t move.aEeUZCyOMHWEpyLNalxuKcxrIkZlke
firJtHiBvfHtMJBRen Yi, avoiding his gaze, turned his attention to Miao Miao as though he were seeking refuge. “If you want to rest, go ahead. Don’t wear yourself out.”VASKKRmUTeCOKZdZxvrcqftvjzvzHd
dmVKkbOEiPbFpjCGong Yingxian lifted his gaze, fixing it on Ren Yi with an unreadable intensity. “Have you and Qi Xiao… done it?”zjDJCNKRSbHRwUqBlFcQMDsVBuiWEc
rdqQHlTxTjWgALJRen Yi froze, his whole body stiffening.MxwzfnqeiAaWjtMsfstNMNrQJnVkNl
GGMUEXSxNsCOXBgGong Yingxian narrowed his eyes. “Since you have thoughts about men, have you ever fantasized about doing it with me?”RvOZnaVigRuDfZvMuAibcnuypZzjJw
joJyewOCIMBBFMMnnmnwVJladRmuKdmNibnRpjkAnKfLT
Holy smokes! I’d die if the next chapter wasn’t ready to read immediately after this!!
I had to keep going!!! Someone told me it’s happening around chapter 100



